Oh, phew. I'm sorry, Christopher. That's a lot to process, especially with the rejection dysphoria.

I haven't dived into the specific dysphoria's yet, but I know I've been more prone to rage and fear for most of my life (I manage it much better in my 40s but that was really hard on our marriage).

For me, I have felt broken and less than, etc. due to all of my mental health stuff and more recently chronic pain stuff, but there's something I've worked through over the past few years: and, I've come to know:

We are not broken. We function differently than others. Research is just now starting to catch up. When we know what our symptoms are that make it hard for us to function, we can seek support and that will impact our loved ones' lives for the better.

I'm super duper grateful for this piece of my "puzzle" psyche. ;P