What a beautiful, heart-wrenching, and challenging read, Kelli. Thank you for writing this. It's made my personal list of Damn Good MWC entries.
I'm sorry for the struggles with your mom and the loss of her to you during this phase.
Sending healing vibes to you while you deal with recovering and battling cancer. What an intense time.
I'm sure your children know they are cherished and loved by you.